Goals: Where am I?

I am grateful. There’s this shiny Samsung Galaxy J2 Prime in my lap as I sit here at home in bright green Ninja Turtle pajama pants and a black NTU t-shirt.

The phone was a gift from a great friend for Mother’s Day and for my 34th birthday at the end of May. It has a mismatched case that another friend later helped me get on the cheap through Amazon Prime.

The blue plastic has done considerably well so far absorbing any impacts that the phone could have suffered. And on the edge of the screen are specks of NAPI cow hay – big pieces of which are still found entangled in my long brown hair (because earlier I had to manhandle a little goat that was stuck between some bales and a horse trailer wall).

Barefoot and comfy on the couch, this peaceful space is slightly tainted by sadness; we came home to find that a roaming dog had devoured our newly acquired hen. But I still have to be positive.

I look back at the phone. The screen shows a compacted list of messages from online entrepreneurs trying to sell me their secret to profiting off of affiliate links, Fulfillment by Amazon (FBA), blogwriting, ClickFunnels, and YouTube, while I’m still here getting caught up with what to do.

Positive affirmations help.

"Well on this 8th of July, sweetheart, all that is going to change. It has to."

Somehow I’ve had this longstanding feeling that humility goes hand-in-hand with just living day-to-day (aka survival mode). I’ve hitchhiked for several years, picked up cans on the sides of highways, and made do without running water or electricity (here in the states and in México).

This is not to say I wouldn’t do any of these things again but rather to show that I’m not materialistically ambitious…

…but I kinda should be.

After a late night shower yesterday, I accepted that I am free to make a profit – without guilt or shame from my own empathetic heart. It is not greedy to learn with and help others for financial gain. I want to provide for myself and my loved ones while giving back.

I have a journey to make with a wide-ruled notebook and a #2 pencil that my eleven-year-old child sharpened for me a few minutes ago… and I want you to be a part of it. I have experiential assets saved as organic memories and a digital trail of semi-failures.

And I’ve lived a life (and continue living a life) worth sharing.

I found, in a famous 243 year old American document, that this is simply known as “the pursuit of happiness” and I intend to make an honest living for myself by pursuing mine – I will give value to the world.

Yes, I’ve wanted to give to others through domains like Kaminantez.com, Greenfreelancers.com, overAcloud.com, RubyPilar.com, MuttonUp.com, REZMAMA.com, and even now through WarriorWomanShop.com, but it just feels like I’m kicking up dust in the air. I want to turn these kicks into MountainKicks (.com!), even if I get 🐴kicked in the wrong way.

I’ve tried too hard (or so I’ve thought!) and I’ve always gotten caught up in the digital code and aesthetics of such projects.

I’ve also failed at being an independent distributor or merchandiser for two other businesses (OMNILIFE supplements and chloe+isabel jewelry) because I didn’t believe in their foundation and structure; they weren’t for me even though they were or may be great for others.

Last month I even applied to become a shoe designer for AliveShoes. I was approved and quickly got a boot design accepted. But, like a few other projects I’ve been interested in, it came with a catch – the price tag was way out of reach for most of my circle of friends, relatives, and neighbors. There is a better way…

Back when I was in elementary school, there was the phrase “knowledge is power!” That’s something worth repeating. Despite the risks of creating a lifestyle blog, I want to share my thoughts, memories, dreams, and research with others. I want to empower myself and others.

I’d love to be a brand ambassador for select products, an online creator, and a positive social influencer. At the very least, I’d like to show my sweet daughter and my great friend that their investments in me (however big or small) are worth it because I’ve inspired others in some way.

That’s where I’m at now – thank you ♡